The day after the day before

What a difference a day makes. It’s funny how the human body and mind works. Yesterday I was pretty good with the whole divorce being finalized, etc. My dearest friend MC cooked dinner for me and she and her next door neighbor and I all ate and shared jokes and stories and it was a stress-free time. It was time that I needed to just give my mind a break.

Today, I am exhausted and drained. I didn’t sleep well last night and actually woke up with puffy eyes this morning – which NEVER happens. The bags under my eyes could have carried my entire wardrobe – including shoes. Makeup is a wonderful invention. It’s not that I was dreaming anything about the divorce or even thinking about it, but my mind obviously in my slumber was going full force. I'm just tired – emotionally and mentally and even a bit physically. I'm having probs with my asthma, and that really sucks. I feel colorless today. Matt started the day off while I was driving in to work by text messaging me some really cruel and hurtful things. How did I put up with that crap for so long? I don’t know if he’s lashing out at me because of yesterday or if he really gets a perverse joy from trying to cause me hurt. He’s done this so many times and so I'm inclined to think it’s the latter, but probably mixed in with a healthy dash of the former.

Anyway, I'm off my game today. My mind is just fuzzy and cloudy and I'm not concentrating very well today and I have a lot of stuff on my plate. I'm actually taking my breaks and my lunch today (I'm breaking right now). Maybe on my lunch I can just get out and get away for an hour. I still haven’t cried over this and I'm not sure when I’ll be able to, but I hope it’s really soon. The pressure inside is just draining me even further.

BUT –

I will leave you with this, instead of leaving off with the sad state of me right now.

There is a wonderful mini-sermon that I love to listen to, I love to read and it’s impossible to not get excited and get a lift from it. It was given in 1976 in Detroit by the Reverend SM Lockridge. I love hearing him say it because you can hear his passion for the Risen Savior in his voice. Reverend SM Lockridge is now with our King. His words are worth hearing and reading again and again! Especially during this Easter season and with the apostate church so prevalent in these end times. See if it doesn't get you excited listening to it!

You can listen to it here either in Real Audio or MP3.

"That's My King"

My King was born King. The Bible says He's a Seven Way King. He's the King of the Jews - that's an Ethnic King. He's the King of Israel - that's a National King. He's the King of righteousness. He's the King of the ages. He's the King of Heaven. He's the King of glory. He's the King of kings and He is the Lord of lords. Now that's my King.

Well, I wonder if you know Him. Do you know Him? Don't try to mislead me. Do you know my King? David said the Heavens declare the glory of God, and the firmament shows His handiwork. My King is the only one of whom there are no means of measure that can define His limitless love. No far seeing telescope can bring into visibility the coastline of the shore of His supplies. No barriers can hinder Him from pouring out His blessing. He's enduringly strong. He's entirely sincere. He's eternally steadfast. He's immortally graceful. He's imperially powerful. He's impartially merciful. That's my King.

He's God's Son. He's the sinner's savior. He's the centerpiece of civilization. He stands alone in Himself. He's honest. He's unique. He's unparalleled. He's unprecedented. He's supreme. He's pre-eminent. He's the grandest idea in literature. He's the highest personality in philosophy. He's the supreme problem in higher criticism. He's the fundamental doctrine of historic theology. He's the carnal necessity of spiritual religion. That's my King.

He's the miracle of the age. He's the superlative of everything good that you choose to call Him. He's the only one able to supply all our needs simultaneously. He supplies strength for the weak. He's available for the tempted and the tried. He sympathizes and He saves. He's the Almighty God who guides and keeps all his people. He heals the sick. He cleanses the lepers. He forgives sinners. He discharged debtors. He delivers the captives. He defends the feeble. He blesses the young. He serves the unfortunate. He regards the aged. He rewards the diligent and He beautifies the meek. That's my King.

Do you know Him? Well, my King is a King of knowledge. He's the wellspring of wisdom. He's the doorway of deliverance. He's the pathway of peace. He's the roadway of righteousness. He's the highway of holiness. He's the gateway of glory. He's the master of the mighty. He's the captain of the conquerors. He's the head of the heroes. He's the leader of the legislatures. He's the overseer of the overcomers. He's the governor of governors. He's the prince of princes. He's the King of kings and He's the Lord of lords. That's my King.

His office is manifold. His promise is sure. His light is matchless. His goodness is limitless. His mercy is everlasting. His love never changes. His Word is enough. His grace is sufficient. His reign is righteous. His yoke is easy and His burden is light. I wish I could describe Him to you . . .but He's indescribable. He's indescribable. That's my King.

He's incomprehensible. He's invincible. He's irresistible. I'm coming to tell you this, that the heavens of heavens can't contain Him, let alone some man explain Him. You can't get Him out of your mind. You can't get Him off of your hands. You can't outlive Him and you can't live without Him. The Pharisees couldn't stand Him, but they found out they couldn't stop Him. Pilate couldn't find any fault in Him. The witnesses couldn't get their testimonies to agree about Him. Herod couldn't kill Him. Death couldn't handle Him and the grave couldn't hold Him. That's my King.

He always has been and He always will be. I'm talking about the fact that He had no predecessor and He'll have no successor. There's nobody before Him and there'll be nobody after Him. You can't impeach Him and He's not going to resign. That's my King! That's my King!

Thine is the kingdom and the power and the glory. Well, all the power belongs to my King. We're around here talking about black power and white power and green power, but in the end all that matters is God's power. Thine is the power. Yeah. And the glory. We try to get prestige and honor and glory for ourselves, but the glory is all His. Yes. Thine is the Kingdom and the power and glory, forever and ever and ever and ever. How long is that? And ever and ever and ever and ever. And when you get through with all of the 'ever's, then . . .Amen.

– Reverend SM Lockridge

May your day be a blessed one today during this Holy Week before Easter.

"You see, at just the right time, when we were still powerless, Christ died for the ungodly. Very rarely will anyone die for a righteous man, though for a good man someone might possibly dare to die. But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us."- Romans 5:6-8