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Tuesday, April 10, 2007

400: The SitRep

Well, today is my 400th post. It is also the 1 year anniversary of my divorce. Many of you have followed my progress before then and since then. The heartbreak, the heartache, the frustrations, the growth, the family, the friends, the gratitude and so forth and so on. I confess that lately it seems wearying to write about my life and the posts have been pretty non-personal other than the Friday's Feast and the memes. Pretty much since not much is going on right now other than it's busy. A friend of mine in Iraq – no, not Dan, another friend – calls times like this NSTR, a term they use in the military. NSTR = Nothing Significant To Report. I like that term. It means that things are pretty much on an even keel right now, and that's a good thing. Status quo is good sometimes. A breather, a break from the extreme ups and downs is good. So, what is this NSTR in my life then? How are things really? Steady. Surprisingly normal. And yet, I find myself with very little time to myself.

It actually sleeted pretty hard around the Austin area for Easter weekend. I think that's a first. About an hour or so Northwest of Austin it snowed – hard. Now I can see this happening in the North, Northeast, Midwest and Mountain regions, but not the South – or at least not as far South as Austin is. It amazes me about Texas weather. Sunday morning we can be at the freezing point (literally) and by tomorrow it could reach almost 90. You know the old saying – if you don't like Texas weather, just wait a few minutes and it'll change. Well, except from late July – September. Then it's pretty much just HOT, humid and gross.

Work is busier than a tissue factory in the middle of allergy season. Still uncertain.

Emily is good. She had tubes in her ears on the 30th of March and is doing just fine. Still hearing well. Ears are draining – still. There was a lot of gunk in them.

Me? Well, I'm doing pretty good. Decided to try and dip my foot in the dating pool again and am corresponding with someone who seems really nice so far but it's just the very, very, very beginning, the very start of the "getting to know you" kind of thing so the undecided is still there. He doesn't live near Austin but at least he is in the state of Texas this time. LOL! MC calls me a chicken and scared, though I prefer to think that I'm just very picky. I know what I want and I won't settle for less this time around. She's probably just a little bit right as well. I'm scared to get back in and get my heart battered and bruised again. I've had enough of that in my life and I don't want anymore. Hopefully I'll find someone who won't put me through so much of that. We'll see.

I've been working with my dear friend Jack Kinsella of the Omega Letter as his Road Tour coordinator. It's pro-bono, it's super busy, it's extremely rewarding. I am the person that everyone who wants to have Jack speak at their church or event between May and September goes to in order to get on the schedule. I have created a travel itinerary so that he and his lovely wife aren't being pulled in several directions at once and it seems to be working well so far. I tell him where to go, who he's meeting with and when to be there and he's there. I might post more about it later, but suffice it to say, I really enjoy doing this! It is fulfilling in a different kind of way altogether! :-)

The X? Well, he and I have found some sort of middle ground. He still frustrates me sometimes and angers me at others, but for the most part it's pretty steady and I think we've started to move past the past and that's a good thing. We have a shared past, we have had a shared love, we have a daughter. It's time to move on and co-parent as best as we can. Admittedly it's easier to forgive him because of that past that we've shared. (Notice I said him) It's a good thing. Finally.

So, we'll see what happens next in my life over the next 100 posts. Hopefully things will start to go up instead of stay status quo. I'm ready for a change of some sort in my life for the better. Hopefully this will be the year that happens. It's time.

Oh, before I forget, a HUGE congrats goes out to one of my very dearest blogfriends Captain Picard who is also celebrating his 400th post. Please go over and tell him congrats too!

Happy 400 to me. Happy "divorceaversary" today as well. Actually, not so happy, but that's the way the dice rolls, the cookie crumbles and so forth. As I said, it's time to move on to the future – instead of living in the past.


Jean-Luc Picard said...

Thank you SO much for the mention Nic. I feel honoured.

As you say, it is best to look to the future, rather than the past.

My 400th post is now up; you have a starring role in my imaginary story!

Laurel Wreath said...

Happy 400th. I enjoyed reading this and finding out how you are doing. Here's to 400 MORE!!

Jon the Intergalactic Gladiator said...

Congrats on 400.

CyberCelt said...

Hello! Are you the *star*? I would like to rejoin and I left the message on the all *blog* stars blog. I put the blogroll on Texas RV blog (usaer.blogspot.com). Thanks!

greatwhitebear said...

Nic, congrats! Not only on your 400th post, not only on your divorcery, but on your obvious growth as a person. It is true that what doesn't kill you makes you stronger.

Obviously, your strength has grown mightily!