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Tuesday, January 09, 2007

In "Other" Words - Tuesdays at CWO

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em·brace [em-breys] -braced, -brac·ing, noun
–verb (used with object)
1. to take or clasp in the arms; press to the bosom; hug.
2. to take or receive gladly or eagerly; accept willingly: to embrace an idea.
3. to avail oneself of: to embrace an opportunity.
4. to adopt (a profession, a religion, etc.): to embrace Christianity.
5. to take in with the eye or the mind.
6. to encircle; surround; enclose.
7. to include or contain: An encyclopedia embraces a great number of subjects.
–verb (used without object)
8. to join in an embrace.
9. an act or instance of embracing.

How can you mend a broken heart?
~ The Bee Gees

Oh how well I know this quote, you see, I live it daily right now. It seems like spiritually I am struggling with the waiting period in my life for something I have asked God about. Emotionally, it seems like I am a wreck.

It started back in December when I had to go back to court to get my divorce decree finalized "in abesntia" after months of my ex refusing to sign the paperwork or even pay the court-ordered child support the last couple months he still had a job. Imagine my surprise when the docket judge stated that there were no notes pertaining to the original divorce case in April in their system so, in the eyes of the court, it was like we had never gotten divorced. If we could find the original judge who had tried the case and get him to sign it then the original divorce would be recognized and final, but...if we couldn't, then basically the divorce case would have to be done over again – re-tried.

The whole drama of that really threw me threw me for a loop and made me really have to take a step back and reassess my life - a lot and I started pulling away from some people in my life. Most notably the person I had been dating. I realized that I had so much baggage in my life and in reassessing myself and my life I found that I don't know myself as well as I should and that really kind of threw me even further. I've been tired lately just mentally and emotionally and I sadly realized that I needed to just concentrate on figuring out who I am and where my life is headed and I should have done that before I started a relationship so soon after my divorce.

The most difficult thing about making the decision to end that relationship is that he is by far the most decent, respectful man I have known in a very, very long time but at this time I knew that I didn't have it in me to sustain a relationship beyond friendship. It really hurt to do it but I didn't want to string things out any further knowing that I couldn't commit to something that I am not personally ready for. He deserved better than that.

So here I am emotionally exhausted and spiritually limping along but I take comfort that what I am experiencing, God feels too. I know that there is one refuge that I can count on, one place of peace where I can turn to whenever, wherever I am. God promises that He will never leave me or forsake me.

In Matthew 11:28-30, Jesus says, "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."

I've been feeling weary and burdened and weighed you down by stress, confusion, sorrow and loneliness. I have to keep remembering that Jesus is my burden-bearer and that I need to allow Him to take the burdens from my shoulders. He dealt with everything on the cross and He wants me to come to Him, give Him my burdens, and let Him take the worries and the fears.

When Jesus says, "I will give you rest," He means "I will refresh you" for further activity. Jesus calls all those who are weary and over-burdened so that they may be strengthened and refreshed and be relieved of our anxieties and sorrows.

His arms are the resting place, His shoulder the crying place, His heart the healing place. Even though sometimes I feel alone - He's already there. He's always been there and He's not going anywhere.


Elisa said...

Oh sweet one, you are in a difficult place, making more difficult decisions, but continue to go to Jesus for the comfort and strength you are looking for. He is indeed faithful and will meet all your needs. Allow Him to work through you, through all of it, to make you whole again. I know it is hard, but just by writing and thinking and praying, you are making the right choices. Get into His word and make sure your mind holds captive His truth alone.

Also from under the pile,

eph2810 said...

I am so sorry to hear that you are drained, Nic. I am glad that you have the ultimate burden-bearer at your side to see you through this time of emotional and physical stress.

Loni said...

I understand these rough roads, and am thankful despite this, you have Jesus who will never leave you or forsake you. Keep leaning on Him.

MiPa said...

((HUGS)) Praying that you feel the embrace of God and that you wiill soon find the rest you need.

Becky said...

His arms are the resting place, His shoulder the crying place, His heart the healing place. What a beautiful description! Thank you for opening your soul. I will be praying for you.

Especially Heather said...

I know that there is one refuge that I can count on, one place of peace where I can turn to whenever, wherever I am. God promises that He will never leave me or forsake me.

I pray that you are blessed through this process and that Christs love flows from you and in you. I cant imagine going through this, but I know that He is the ultimate sustainer, and he will sustain you when you have no more strength.

You are in my thoughts and prayers- Thank you for sharing in todays CWO meme, I really enjoyed my visit.

Be blessed,

Imperfect Christian said...

I love your inclusion of the quote from the Bee Gees! We had "To Love Somebody" as our wedding song and looking at the lyrics again, it takes on a whole new perspective!

Laurel Wreath said...

Honey I am sure that was a very difficult decision to make. It is always nice to have the comfort. God is going to bless you, just let him heal you first. Praying your through this tough time.

Jean-Luc Picard said...

It must have been exhausting, Nic, and very difficult to end a relationship. You have your daughter, and that's what counts.

Amydeanne said...

that is just brutal Nic. Unfortunately I can relate to some of this. It's so amazing to know that God really does protect us during this time, even when we don't always feel like it. He's got control and embraces us! (love the definition btw!)
hugs and prayers my friend!